At my most vulnerable, at my most fragile, he comes. When I allow the doubts to creep in, he makes his presence known. He doesn’t come in the form of a terrifying fallen angel. Oh no, he comes in the form of a lover, an amante, a desire, a forbidden passion.
As I walk around my quaint neighborhood, admiring the clusters of houses and little gardens, he comes to mind:
“Maybe you should text him.”
“Perhaps you were wrong to reject him before.”
“God could have sent you to show him the Way, couldn’t He have? God can do anything, right?”
Washing my hair and listening to Latin music, I picture us dancing to the tune. I don’t change the song.
Hearing the Spanish love songs I adore and imagining him wanting me like the singer wants his muse.
The sky falls, the sun drops, the stars peek their heads into the wide God-fashioned expanse.
“Text him. You can’t stop thinking about him, so it must be a sign from God.”
Five months had passed since we last spoke. His ridiculous romantic advances were disgusting to me and I had rejected him.
But, the connection.
But, the feeling.
But, the passion.
We exchanged pleasantries for a few moments before the former flattering words spewed forth from his mouth.
“What do you want?” I asked.
“All of you. I want to know everything about you.”
Now, this man doesn’t know Christ and he is almost 40-years old. Everything in me told me not to respond to that, but I did. Why did I? He promised love. He promised passion. He promised fire. His words stirred the desire in me that I had suppressed for so long.
After a night of forsaken sleep and fervent text messages, the Holy Spirit spoke clearly to my heart by giving me a feeling of utter disgust with this situation. I felt it in the pit of my stomach and it gurgled up to my throat. I texted the man and restated that I’m not the one for him.
Not today, Satan. Not today.
When Satan comes, he doesn’t come as a figure of fear or destruction, WHICH IS WHAT HE IS. He comes as your greatest fleshly desire. In my case, it was romantic love and physical passion. Remember that Satan is the father of lies and all he wants to do is steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). He prowls around, looking for someone to devour (I Peter 5:8). Who does he want to destroy? Believers. He hates us with an everlasting hatred because we are God’s beloved, and he hates God.
Brothers and sisters, there is hope. That hope comes in the person of Jesus Christ, fully man and fully God. Through His sacrifice on the cross, we no longer have to identify by our sins and shortcomings. I am not Gabrielle, the girl who succumbs when a man sweet talks her in Spanish. I am Gabrielle, daughter of the King, furtherer of God’s kingdom, and heavenly princess. Your sins do not define you if you believe in Jesus Christ. Accept His free gift of healing, liberation, and peace. This gift is something we believers must accept every day. Every day we have to say NO to identifying by our sins and say YES to identifying by our God. Preach yourself the Gospel every day. Lord knows I need His Good News every moment.
You will be tempted because you are human and prone to sin. We all are. But, God promises to give us a way out of temptation. That is through Himself. (1 Corinthians 10:13).
Be encouraged. You are NEVER too dirty or too much for God. He made you and He LOVES you!