Tag: Jesus
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Releasing Religious Trauma – Fuck It!
“Sometimes you just have to say ‘fuck it.’” I love Grace and Frankie, and that’s one of my favorite quotes from the show. Seeing women in their 70s and 80s live their lives with each other, free from the shackles of men or societal expectations literally gives me life. During my tenth rewatch, I realized…
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Rage and Fear: Three Years Free from Christianity
This is stream of consciousness. Please don’t expect a well-drafted essay. This isn’t it. In Los Angeles in 2015, I participated in a group debriefing activity while healing from all the trauma I experienced in Kolkata, India. I was sexually assaulted three times. Intimate parts of my body were touched for the first time, and…
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ParaKajol’s Future, My Abusive Ex-Pastor, and My Revenge?
Readers, It has been a couple of months since I’ve written on ParaKajol, but I’m here. Truthfully it has been longer than a few months since I’ve written anything substantial. I have not felt the urge to write but also couldn’t imagine the topic of my next piece. While I reflect on the 5 years…
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One Year Free From Christianity—Would I Go Back?
Readers, As I reflect on this past year without Christianity in my life, several themes come to mind. Granted this is the first year of my entire life (as far as I can remember) that I have not been a Christian. For the first 27 years of my existence, I have been thinking about, praying…
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I AM NOT A CHRISTIAN ANYMORE
I love Jesus and believe that Jesus is God. I also believe that for other people, they may know God by a different name and that’s okay. More than okay, that’s interesting and I want to learn more about that. To expect every person on earth to believe in one singular representation of the Creator…
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Releasing My 5-Year Plan & Embracing Minimalism
*This picture was taken in 2015 in our living room in our Kolkata apartment* As this pandemic rages on, as we witness more and more devastating examples of White supremacy’s bloodthirsty power at work in this world, as the economy rises and falls, I have been reflecting. This is an unprecedented time. We’re all aware…
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I Left My Church Because of Racism
Readers, This is a hard one. I considered not writing this, especially as I was told that my previous posts about my church were making relationship and community difficult. But after listening to the stories of my Black and brown Christian brothers and sisters, and realizing that we are all telling variations of the same…
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Gaslighters in the Church #BlackLivesMatter
Ahmaud Arbery. Breonna Taylor. George Floyd. There are more. There are others who have left us before them, have left us since them, and will continue to leave us as we fight this war against white supremacy. Since these glorious black people have died, I have experienced a myriad emotions and thoughts ranging from deep…
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Grief Travels with You
Readers, As I grow in Christ, in healthier theology, and in freedom, I am becoming increasingly aware that grief travels with you. It doesn’t entirely evaporate after a fixed amount of time, like many preach. There can always be a part of you that twinges with sadness when you remember that person who is no…