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Stolen Youth : My Escape from Evangelical Christianity – Introduction
How do you begin a book you never thought you’d write? Once the thought of leaving my religion, of rejecting my god, would cause extreme physical and mental pain. I’d feel nauseated and anxious: how could I desert the one who had saved me from eternal death and despair? Could satan ever grab hold of…
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Rage and Fear: Three Years Free from Christianity
This is stream of consciousness. Please don’t expect a well-drafted essay. This isn’t it. In Los Angeles in 2015, I participated in a group debriefing activity while healing from all the trauma I experienced in Kolkata, India. I was sexually assaulted three times. Intimate parts of my body were touched for the first time, and…
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ParaKajol’s Future, My Abusive Ex-Pastor, and My Revenge?
Readers, It has been a couple of months since I’ve written on ParaKajol, but I’m here. Truthfully it has been longer than a few months since I’ve written anything substantial. I have not felt the urge to write but also couldn’t imagine the topic of my next piece. While I reflect on the 5 years…
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One Year Free From Christianity—Would I Go Back?
Readers, As I reflect on this past year without Christianity in my life, several themes come to mind. Granted this is the first year of my entire life (as far as I can remember) that I have not been a Christian. For the first 27 years of my existence, I have been thinking about, praying…
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To the Christian Friends I’ve Lost
I’m a heathen; I no longer believe in God. Several months ago I shared a post about how I am no longer a Christian, but that I still believed in Christ to a certain extent and definitely in a creator. Now I do not believe at all. I’ve seen this process memeified on Instagram and…
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Stuck in the Wrong Body
Readers, I’m the first to admit I know little about transgender issues…or even what it feels like to not identify with the body you’re born into. When I was a Christian, I believed it was wrong to be LGBTQIA+ and that identify as trans in particular was telling god that he made a mistake. Now…
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Evangelical Christianity Stole My Identity
At 21 years old, I knew exactly who I was. I was a young Christian woman, commissioned by god to share his universal truth with the entire world. I was set apart to be pure in a world where sinfulness and sensuality reigned. When facing god at the end of my life, he would judge…
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I AM NOT A CHRISTIAN ANYMORE
I love Jesus and believe that Jesus is God. I also believe that for other people, they may know God by a different name and that’s okay. More than okay, that’s interesting and I want to learn more about that. To expect every person on earth to believe in one singular representation of the Creator…
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Why Do Men Act Like This?: A Journey into R*pe Culture
TW: Discussion of r*pe culture and harassment from men Readers, I’m over this. As an almost 27-year old woman, I’ve had my fair share of encounters with heterosexual men of all ethnic and religious backgrounds. I’ve experienced enough men to confidently say that many men believe in r*pe culture, and most aren’t aware of it.…